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  Misery Doesn’t Always Love Company

  Mark A. McDonald

  Copyright © 2009 by Mark A. McDonald.

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  978-1-4415-9239-2

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  Contents

  Life

  Change

  My Mother’s Chair

  Why

  Complacency

  Thief

  For You (Thanks to an employer)

  Dance

  Free

  Red

  Love

  Jackie

  Relief

  Consequence

  Do You Really?

  Just before Dawn

  Passion

  Siren

  Discontent

  Yesterday

  Hardship

  Path

  Elián

  Drain

  Drive

  My Sovereignty, a dilemma

  The Deciding Factor

  Faith

  FOE

  Indifference

  Forever

  Traitor

  My Shame

  Faith

  The Rose

  Master of My Fate

  Anguish

  Taint

  Truth

  Pain

  Distress

  Within

  Race

  The Only One

  Introspection

  Advent

  Esteem

  Me

  CAT

  Eventually

  The Person I Knew

  My Fire

  Average

  Et Al

  Left, Right, Wrong?

  How Can You, Mozart?

  What Would You Say

  Ode

  Doubt

  Closer

  For Jackie & Amy

  Life

  We constantly wade through the toil and the strife

  Where is my lighthouse, my guide

  Life compromising!

  Life unbecoming!

  Life—I find you lacking!

  But I digress . . .

  “We must make an effort to implement positive changes in our lives

  And not just sit and watch the days go by”

  Change

  Are you willing to, in your life

  Facilitate change?

  Are you willing to go through possible hardship

  To earn its wage?

  Or succumb to the crime of indifference

  And invite its rage?

  “Everyone needs a place where they can go to temporarily

  Forget and relax”

  My Mother’s Chair

  I really enjoy sitting in this chair

  It gives me such comfort

  It gives me such peace

  All chaos around me cease

  Nothing gets to me, frustration the least

  When I’m sitting in this chair

  No matter how angry, malicious or negative I get

  I sit back, I forget

  I let my mind clear of all its ails

  They all just dissipate in the air

  All the worries, all the fear

  Because of this chair!

  Its wonderful color, with dirt and stain

  Troubles try to overtake me—they try in vain

  If I could only stay a while longer

  Only remain

  In this chair, my mother’s wonderful chair.

  “Something that always has to be taken into consideration:

  The Human factor”

  (Hear that Marx!)

  Why

  If on man we could rely

  If only on his word, his honor, we could go by

  We can’t, why?

  It is not that everything done, spoken, implied is a lie

  But man is oriented unfortunately, to watching his fellowman fail, even die

  One has to be exceptional, not necessarily good but at least better

  Or even try

  And we can’t, why?

  We live in a world in which good people are greeted with suspicion

  Suspense

  Where is truth when we need it to stand in our defense?

  Hypocrites, chameleons, no one to trust, a true offense!

  You would think that such an intelligent species would have more sense . . .

  Yet we do not, why?

  Isn’t it good to know we can be set straight?

  Choose other options besides envy, bigotry, hate?

  But a lot of us are going to give in too late

  Still harboring the same old habits

  But wait

  If on both sides these forces reign so great

  To what or whom, will we finally relate?

  We get love, unity, peace

  And all we have to do is forsake malice, hate

  Yet we can’t, why?

  Can you tell me?

  “If you have something to do to better yourself

  To create a better tomorrow

  Do it now!

  Don’t procrastinate

  At least life is pointing you in a particular direction”

  Complacency

  So many gone before me

  Have been lost along the way

  So many, some bad, some better than me

  Their lives have dwindled away

  Some fell into undesirable company

  Some their environment was too rocky

  But I seem to have landed on fertile clay!

  But I have to grow

  I have to flourish

  I have to bear fruit

  I have to nourish

  But first I have to die!

  But I’m comfortable with this life

  I don’t want it to vanish

  Yet it seems I have no choice

  It has begun to diminish

  I’m holding on too long to this lie

  For things to get better

  I have to die

  But I’m afraid of the unknown

  I’ll lie down, I’ll try

  But what do I know—I’m just a seed!

  Thief

  To be a thief wouldn’t that be neat

  Steal, ste
al, easy and neat, sweet?

  I don’t think so

  Me? I’d never get caught, never

  The cops would be too dumb to catch me, catch me? Never, ever?

  I don’t think so

  Alright, so I got caught

  It was those stupid idiots, it wasn’t my fault!

  But hey I’m not worried, the judge can’t make nothing stick

  If only these stupid cops stop annoying me, especially that pig, that . . . @#&!

  I’ve never been sent to prison, and I never will

  I’ll get off, you just wait and see

  What with my amazing abilities, with my skills?

  I don’t think so.

  God damn! I’m in prison!

  Why didn’t I pay attention to my lawyer, that stupid judge!

  Why didn’t I listen?

  No! No! I’m not going in there!

  YOU CAN’T MAKE ME!

  NO! LET ME GO YOU PIG! NO, LET ME GO—ah man—

  YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO HIT ME!!

  Alright, alright I messed up, please give me another chance

  I’ll change my ways

  GET YOURSELF TOGETHER BOY!

  TAKE YOUR PUNISHMENT LIKE A MAN!

  DIDN’T YOU KNOW THAT crime doesn’t pay

  Hey look! Fresh meat! Well what do you know—

  HELLO BABY!

  Guard, was that big guy talking to me . . .

  Huh?

  Answer me

  ANSWER ME!

  Maybe

  Son, it’s simple, you break the law you pay

  Think about it son, we’re doing you a favor

  The direction you were going

  In a few years you might have been dead anyway!

  Oh yeah? I’m going to get all of you!

  That’s what you think!

  That’s what I know!

  With that kind of attitude young man . . .

  I don’t think so.

  “Happy is the man who is employed in something he enjoys

  Wouldn’t it be perfect without these distractions called Bills?”

  For You (Thanks to an employer)

  No matter the complaints I hear

  The sounds of discontent

  The glimmers of fear

  Whether it’s justified

  Whether it’s true

  I’m thankful to God

  For you.

  Without your accomplishments, your dreams

  None of us would be here

  Yes, employment we would have found

  Although we don’t know where

  But to get a chance at a better life

  Something better, worthwhile to do

  I’m thankful to God

  For you.

  Sure we could have been better

  Or we could have been worse

  Will time pass judgment

  By the size of one’s purse?

  If only we could just be concerned

  With the here and now

  Do our best, help each other out

  And be thankful for what tomorrow allows

  One day, we might see some of our dreams come true

  But until then, I’m thankful to God

  For you

  One’s true path in life is sometimes clear

  Most of us are oblivious to it, don’t even care

  I’m thankful you found yours, despite pain or strife

  I’m thankful that you and your company are a part of my life.

  “The lust of the eyes

  The lust of the body

  The pride of life . . .”

  Dance

  Dance for me

  Dance some more

  Turn me on

  Capture me in your stare

  Torture me, I don’t care

  Just don’t say you’re gone

  Show me what I want to see

  Come deep, deep inside me

  Deep and long

  I’m yours, at least for a while

  To you I belong

  How ironic

  Or is it pathetic?

  I think I’ll go home now

  Later.

  “One of the strongest human desires is freedom.

  But what do you do if the shackles are invisible?”

  Free

  When shall we be free

  Truly free?

  Do we act

  Stand proud and

  Take the initiative, or

  Just wait and see?

  Black person?

  Human?

  “Distract me

  For just a little while longer”

  Red

  Red and white

  What a sight

  Too bad it’s just a fantasy

  Moving to the left then

  To the right

  Room barely void of light

  Harkening the conveyor of ecstasy

  Stares falling on empty eyes

  The beautiful smile

  The beautiful lies

  I love you.

  Love

  The “Holy Grail” of relationships,

  Be it myth or true

  To find that someone who makes you feel so wonderful inside

  When they say “I love you” . . .

  “Tend your garden with all the care and love you can give

  Give each flower the greatest chance of being all it can be”

  Jackie

  Beautiful flower

  On this long lost day

  Your frail, wondrous petals

  Have started to fade away

  Although the splendor of your bloom isn’t visible now

  Fantastic flower, your demise I shan’t allow!

  I know now what I must do

  The care, the love that must be given to you

  You only get one chance to show the world your light

  In this endless night

  So bloom, beautiful flower bloom with all your might!!

  Do not succumb to winter’s merciless cold

  Let only tales of your warmth, beautiful flower, o’er the eons be told!

  Tales that will never get old!

  “Awaken, O my heart

  From your slumber

  From your sleep”

  Relief

  She called today

  Set aright my troubled mind that had gone amiss

  My mind, which was painfully caught

  In the gears of this gigantic mechanism

  We refer to as life

  But she did call

  And now everything is better.

  “Some actions are worth the possible consequences

  No matter how much you put yourself in harm’s way

  Love is one such action”

  Consequence

  Head first

  That’s the way I always do it

  At least lately anyway

  Head first

  Not contemplating the possible outcomes

  Of my actions

  Regardless of

  The consequences

  Once bitten, twice shy?

  Not so!

  At what age did this author write that anyway?

  Did he or she, go through all of life’s

  Possible situations?

  I unfortunately, have proven it incorrect

  Is it better

  To not have loved at all

  Than to have loved and lost? />
  Or is it healthy to, every once in a while

  Put your emotions through the wringer?

  “I love you

  Such a wonderful phrase

  Or such wonderfully deceitful phrase!”

  Do You Really?

  You say you love me

  Yet you thrust into my heart a blade

  Twisting it, turning it, leaving my trust betrayed

  The reasons why, I cannot see

  Yet you stare and

  You say you love me?

  You say you love me

  So why forego all my years of sacrifice

  Was all my pain not worth the price?

  From your father and me, you hide things so carefully

  Then you stare and

  Say you love me?

  O if I could repay the debt

  Take back all the tears that have been wept

  I would do things better, do things differently

  You person in the mirror, why do you stare

  And

  Say you love me?

  “The darkest part of night is just before dawn

  Or so I have heard”

  Just before Dawn

  I know you’re out there

  Somewhere trying to hide from me

  This darkness, I shall have no fear

  I’ll toil just a little while longer

  I know you will not forsake me

  O Dawn

  It’s now the darkest night

  But when you return all will be right

  Come to me now

  Brighten my life, my day, somehow

  Don’t forget me

  O Dawn.

  Passion

  I remember how I used to feel

  Those innocent moments I used to steal . . .

  “So wonderful, this voyage we call life

  She’s so beautiful, what a lovely voice